Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Long awaited update

The kids have grown so much in the last few months. Lawson has started his second year of tball and is quite interested in it this year. Last year it was more about playing in the dirt but this year its about how many runs and outs that he can get. I must say my little "lefty" is quite the ball player! It has been a long and trying couple of months for our family. Sean and I are going through a divorce and the kids are spending half their time with me and half with him. It has been a big adjustment for all of us but it gets easier each week. I am on a path to complete recovery, living years in a state of depression isn't healthy for a person let alone a family. I find that I become stronger and the person that I once was each new day. The help from my parents, my closest thing to a sister, Sandra, my children, my best friend and also the lord has made my journey so much easier. It is so funny how people come into your life at the times that you truly need them. I am working with an amazing therapist that has been assisting me in my healing process. There are so many factors that can lead up to a depression and staying in situations where you are unhappy can lead to a domino effect and have your life spinning out of control. I will say if you are truly unhappy then you need to do something about it because just pretending isn't going to solve anything. You need to be treated and treat others with the same love and respect that we all need. There was a time where I felt trapped and completely hopelss, isolated from everyone that I hold dear and I almost lost myself completely but I survived and am so much stronger because of that. I am so lucky to have two of the smartest best looking kids I have ever laid eyes upon. I feel like God has given me a second chance at life, an opportunity for me to find true and complete happiness and to find a place where I belong. I never really felt that the passed few years. I felt an obligation to marry and that is never the right reason. The year 2009 has been the most difficult one in my life and ironically one of the best things in my life happened this year as well. I am truly blessed at this second chance from God and I cannot wait for what the future holds for our family. Myself, Lawson, Britain, Maverick, Kip and our newest addition Sasha, a persian kitten we rescued are enjoying every moment we have together.